Reflection blues

Sometimes I just wonder what the heck am I doing everyday? Hours passes, days passes, years passes...Doing something repeatedly daily is not what I had envisioned. Especially if it's the same old thing. I can't seem to find the motivation these days. If I had just made a different decision many years ago...

I think "fate" plays a understated role in our lives. Hey, we cannot choose how we were born, we cannot choose what we learned during our upbringing. We cannot choose which kindergarten or school we went to. It was all "pre-destined". Yes, we can be arrogant to say we control our fate but to a large extent, I think this is pure "motivational talk" bullshit. We cannot change many things in our lives.

For example, if you were brought up in a mafia's family, you'd be a mafia boss one day. If you were brought up in a farmer's family, you'd be a farmer one day. If you were brought up in a political family eg the Kennedy, chances are you'd be a politician. Look at the generations of miners or fishermen for example. The upbringing, exposure, the environment, the opportunities, are pre-destined for you.

Yes, it's possible to "turn" your fate. But it's easier said then done. We were all fed by Hollywood dramas and "one in a million chance" success stories to cheer up the reality in our lives.

I gotta get out more often.

A great break..

Tranquility in Koh Samui...you'll never know how stressed up you are until you see this.

Where do you draw the line?

Me : I want one plate. How much?
Char Kuey Teow seller : RM3.50. But you need to pay an additional RM1 for the use of the plate and chopsticks.

I'm joking la...this is just a fiction of my imagination. Or is it?

I've decided to purchase a house. Went to the company lawyer's office to sign the S&P. First time ma...a bit blur blur.

The lawyer outlined her fees. Certification of photocopied documents RM50, stationary/stamp postage/photocopy/telephone bill RM50, travelling expenses RM20...bla bla bla, all must pay upfront. Although I was the one who drove to the lawyer's office and paid parking as well. Maybe she needed to drive up and down to settle my stuffs, I don't know.

Anyway I'm not here to bash up the lawyers. It appears common nowadays to "split" the fee as a means to jack up the cost. You book a hotel room, they provide internet connection and TV, but to use the internet or view certain channels, you need to pay. Patients get admitted to private hospitals, uses the toilet - gets billed for the toilet roll.

The excuse the various people use is "It actually saves money for the people who do not use these services". I say this is utter bullshit. For example in a hotel, even if nobody is using the internet line, I'm sure it is used (shared) by the management themselves. They would not lose a single cent even if every guest uses the internet but they stand to make lots of $$ if they charge. It is not that they are helping people to save but rather an opportunity to make more $$.

I won't be surprised if lawyers will start charging for internet line usage, computer rental usage, air-con bill, usage of table and chairs, food and drinks bill and even for toilet rolls.

Doctors also are beginning to learn this trick. I guess in the future for an operation eg total colectomy + jejunostomy, one can charge for laparatomy, ascending colectomy, transverse colectomy, descending colectomy, peritoneal washout, stump closure, jejunostomy and skin suturing. So it's actually 8 procedures. Can charge 8 times. But lawyers, rest assured, in the medical field "fee splitting" is unethical and not permitted...for now.

Anyway it's a dog eat dog world. Whatever goes around comes around.